I love to watch anime, read manga and gaming plays a BIG part in my life. I fantasize in anime characters alot, and I love everything Japanese. ❤

I'm lazy till the extent its ridiculous, and my mindset would be the greatest downfall in my life. I need a brain change. =D

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Anyone looking for jobs right now?


My friend got one job lobang for all of you. It's available with flexible hours, attractive pay and incentives.


Email me if you're interested!

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Had Sakae Sushi last Sunday! Hope I have time to blog about it next time.


I thought I heard my legs break today, thinking back it could be mild osteoporosis. Was shifting a lot of heavy boxes from afternoon till night without resting much from one end to another. I thank God for the invention of Pepsi and Coke, they kept me going. If not I wouldn't be typing now but lying in the hospital.


Grace got blisters because she's wearing her flats and carrying boxes all around. But I was wearing sport shoes AND still injured my toes!


I dread tomorrow.


There's several problems concerning our working hours that arose these few days. Not exactly unfounded but it was more like suspicious. Wanted to ask questions to clear doubts but XH asked previously but the answer that was given was O_O?


Am going to clarify tomorrow. Not like I dare, I'm just giving emotionally moral support to QR and the rest HAHAHAHAHA.



Okay lah, actually we did ask some of our doubts today and gotten an explanation. It was confusing and I couldn't get it so if I went and ask, nothing would come out of it. I even need QR to translate for me once again.


Without understanding it still. @_@




Now I like to SMS because my nails are SHORT! Wanted to tweet like every minute when I woke up this morning but I resisted.

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Sleepy, sleepy, and still sleepy. Never felt like this for some time.


I had my fill of sleep this afternoon but still feeling quite listless the whole day. Like the thought of going to work again tomorrow puts me off. Not like I dislike my work a lot but I need to rise early from Monday to Saturday (having 5.5 work week) and not having ample time to revise my Japanese.


I haven't start doing any revision for it to be specific. I wish I could, it's my interest afterall.


Will be working overtime tomorrow so my working hours would be from 9AM to 8PM. Waiting for 5.30PM to strike everyday seems to be so cruel, yet I'm doing more. Don't really have a choice because I still owe my Mom money.


Deciding whether to take leave on Tuesday to rest but that means I'm working overtime for nothing since if I don't work, it means no pay!


Turning into a big fat money grubber lor. :(



One thing I hate about working is that you don't get your pay immediately. Usually you have to wait till the end of the month or something to receive it. So I can't see any money coming in for now! Don't wanna withdraw coffin money from bank so it's hard no matter what I do, what I buy, etc etc because I sense the heartache!


Some more I heard the place that I'm working at always drags the pay. I hope it's not true, because it's a rich organisation no matter how you see it. It's like a rich typhoon acting like a poor beggar.


I'll see how it goes though, that rumour that I heard was from one person only, so it could be one-sided.


AHhhHhhhhHh dammet, IT BETTER NOT BE TRUE!!!!!!



Anyway, my eyes still feel like closing after I tried to type something out here. I thought it might perk me up as my fingers are continously and furiously typing away but it seems like my head's gonna go down soon.


Must be the toil that I suffered this morning at Amos' house.


Didn't I say I was having a showdown Dota match with Yijoe? I lost, obviously. I don't even play Dota occasionally, not to talk about winning.


In any case, I shall not be a sore loser. He's welcome to burn my book anytime. Of course I'm upset but it was an agreement that I couldn't back out on.

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OH MY GODDDDDDDDDDDDDD!


The Dota match would be starting in another few hours time! I am totally not prepared at all, have been working my guts out for the entire week, and of course super drained. By the time I'm finally relaxed, it's time for me to go to bed to get ready for another day.


If I lose, I have to let my manga get burned! NOOO!!!


Although my title is "Help me!", you can't help me. One of the rules would be no helping from anyone. Dammmmetttt.

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I dreamt that my Mom died.


So real that I don't know what to do, apparently she has a weak body and she just told me she'll be going for an operation soon (real life). It's an ill-omen, but in the dream I saw that because she refused to take an injection, she passed away.


The feeling was absolute and horribly factual. Like the pain and misery one feels when their loved ones are gone, and in my dream, I understood the sorrows my cousins went through few years back.


I kept crying and crying, I couldn't stop.


Can't remember much about Pops and Brother but I think they're there, just that I don't recall anything much (too busy crying?).


You know like how I always said Mom is biased and all? Inside my world of dreams, I felt like nothing was important anymore. I regretted not paying much attention to what she said when she was alive and felt extremely remorseful when I don't consider myself filial.


It all goes back to the same thing -

"If only you'll come back, I'm willing to do anything."




I remembered opening my eyes a little in real life and I still saw that dream, I was really disturbed and a strong urge to shout but I didn't. I've decided to compress my feelings inside. When I opened my eyes, I wasn't awake. I was still semi dreaming that's why I still can see the dream.


When I had woken up for work this morning, the dream didn't revoke. It only happened when I was watching Anime after work this evening. Naruto and Sasuke fighting lah, don't know why it had to be that timing. -_-



Mom's out to Orchard until night time and I told her about my dream when she came back. While I was explaining my fear that I felt while I was sleeping, tears just unconsciously rolled down from my eyes. I couldn't continue anymore because I was sobbing.


Mom consoled me. Crap, I think the tears are coming back. Need to end this quickly.


I may not like her actions and her choices of words sometimes but she's still my mother no matter what. The blood relation can't be altered, and it was only few months ago that I found out during my blood donation that I belong to the same blood category as my Mom.


We're both "A Postive".


I heard that people that has bloodtype "A" are quite hot tempered and unreasonable. I think that might be true.


I remember Pops grumbling that I shouldn't be "A" but "O" instead. Because he's an "O" and Brother inherited his bloodtype. I know he's hurt when he knew that I do not belong to the same bloodtype as him. It was obvious from his expression. =D


So yeah, I think that even though I may disapprove of my Mom, but there's an unbreakable bond. Even though I dislike her for buying trucks of snacks for Brother and none for me, I satisfy myself by stealing some which ended up getting scolded by her.


Which sours our relationship. It's always because of me nitpicking on food I think. I'm not sure lah, but it's like always I ate her ice cream inside the fridge or anything then we quarrelled since I offered to buy it back for her but she don't want, etc etc. -_-


More serious ones would be my attitude. We shout at each other at times too. Like how untidy my room is for example.



By the way, I think my Mom's touched by my tears just now because she just OFFERED me her black pepper chicken wings for free!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! She's hardly this generous lor. Whoohoo!!



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Okay, back to work stuff!


I was tweeting this morning about how unlucky I am today due to my cheapskateness. Was supposed to do data entry for a start and there were a bunch of files to begin with. Being the cheapskate me, I chose the thinnest one out of the ones I can see.



Bad choice. That STUPID file had the MOST problematic cases in it!!!!!!!



It's either the data that's supposed to be already keyed in wasn't there or I can't find some personal data of the people I'm supposed to update their profile on. Or even worse, after the missing data were keyed in, those data that was originally there was GONE!


And I'm the only one that did my work until my computer hanged and the whole office have to restart the entire server twice.


Dammet!


So I asked to do something else instead and they agreed when they saw me so frustrated in a way I guess. Could it be my legendary "Wonder Hands" again??


Anyway, the guy that I mentioned in the previous entry? He came back today as well. Apparently everyone saw him before even before yesterday except me. He's a skilled person, I can tell.


He reported for work without us knowing until I went into the room and saw him editing the photos, and before I know it, he was GONE FOR THE DAY!


I like surprises, but such surprises are spooky and frightening. T__T



Will he come tomorrow? Should I stalk him just in case to confirm that he's human?

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Work was much slack as compared to the previous days because the fierce auntie didn't turn up. But still, time passed slowly. Was editing photos and modifying them as usual for a while until another guy replaced me (just when I was starting to like it too dammet -_-).


That guy is quite scary as well. He came in without a sound, and during lunch break I saw him taking his food, but he was gone in a blink of an eye. And before we're dismissed from work, he vanished into thin air.


O_O



Anyway so after that, I helped out XH.


XH asked me a question.

"Do you have a boyfriend?"


I lied.
I said no.


In fact I have a lot of boyfriends! They come in all shapes and sizes.



Then XH asked me another question.

"Your family is rich, right?"


I spoke the truth.
I said no.


"But you look rich."



HAHAHAHAHAHA I LOOK RICH!!!!!!!



And this morning, I learnt that "Wah lau" was supposed to be considered a vulgar word to speak! And we Singaporeans are saying that everyday without fail while having fun, while being irritated, while eating, while watching shows, etc etc.


No way I'm going to quit saying that despite knowing though, it's too late to change. And when influences are everywhere as it's too common a word. I don't usually speak vulgarities but this one is hard to quit. I bet even government officials says it too, as long as we're all Singaporeans. I'm not proud of it.


It's becoming like Singlish (or maybe it already is).



I'm going to cut my fringe tomorrow again! Self reminder.



Anyway, should I take leave for fun next week? Everyone just scheduled their on off days. Grace took off yesterday, QR today, XH on Friday.


By right I should be taking off tomorrow to match their timing but I'm quite money minded this month due to the amount of money I've spent. So wanna earn as much as I can without taking unnecessary leave.



Muahahahahahahaha I LOOK RICH!!!!

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Just had a heavy dinner since it's been a while since I felt like eating so much. Appetite is still considered poor compared to my usual, and I don't even know where the problem lies. I realised my appetite became extremely low since Prom.


Work today using the computer all day without rest that my eyes felt like bleeding after straining for 8 hours (because mild details need to be attended to). X_X


Snuck myself into MSN while editing a big bunch of scanned photos. I don't even edit my OWN photos but I edited 246 photos and did 140 modifications for OTHERS today!!



I hope I'll be doing these tomorrow again since I get to use the computer, and perhaps use MSN secretly and chat with my boyfriends.

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CRAP!!!!!

I FORGOT I GOT JAPANESE LESSON ON FRIDAY SO I CAN'T WORK OVERTIME.

MY $9.40/HOUR!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!

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I've never been punctual for work for the past week but I finally did it today! Took the MRT and switched to bus service instead of taking direct bus there. Am changing my route to work from tomorrow onwards so I can sleep a little bit more.


One of my colleagues quit after working for a few hours, and I heard that another one quit last week. Wonder when's my turn.


But well at least the people there are mostly friendly and seems okay. So much better than Mos Burger (my first job), it was a semi nightmare.





Still considering if I should work overtime this coming Friday because the pay jumps to $9.40 per hour! But that means I'll be extremely tired and sweating my guts out isn't very ideal. Most likely going to I guess, it's good money anyway.


And this coming Saturday I can choose to work overtime too.

BUT.



Yijoe proposed a Dota showdown. -_-


And if nothing goes wrong I might be having Sakae Sushi with Yiuliang and the rest so most likely would be saying no to money that day. But it's such a good opportunity!! So it's like Food VS Money.


Which is more important?


I'm more worried about the showdown though, not as if I'm very good at Dota. I can even lose in Easy mode with the computer last time.


If I won, I can rip him off by a 50 dollar bill.
If I lost, he swore to burn my manga. -_-


So I'm going to click from left to right, from top to bottom, anything to stop him from winning.





So sleepy.

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Was drinking with Kah Hao and Yi Joe last night till this morning!


It was my first time trying out Chivas and I've come to a conclusion that I didn't like the taste at first, but slowly it gets all right.





Played Truth or Dare, guessing games, poker cards, fingers games to determine the losers and drink. I have terrible luck and my reaction was slow so I kept losing. The favourite phrase of the night was probably "Bottoms up!"


But Kah Hao lost ALMOST every round of Indian poker. Extremely hilarious.






They dared me to drink up the remaining Chivas without coke (pure shot) all at once and I drank it all down! Not that difficult than I thought and it was fun because there was pressure. Not that I like things like pressure (that's psycho) but when there's stress, it gets more fun.


Yi Joe is super lousy, he's like semi drunk and he didn't want to admit it so he keeps talking. Like saying, "I'm not drunk yet! See? I can walk straight!" when he's walking in zig zag direction. And when I told him the truth, he said he did it on purpose.


So convincing. -_-


After I came back from the toilet (drank too much so needed to pee), here's what he did.






IS HE TRYING TO PORTRAY US AS ILL BRED TEENAGERS??????


After which, he said the same thing again. "I show you I can walk in a straight line!" with bloodshot eyes. He's so unpredictable that it's scary.


Had supper and took the cab home.


The worse thing is while I was sleeping, he suddenly called and talked rubbish. Hung up on him because I was tired since I woke up early in the morning yesterday.



I wanted to get drunk actually because I'm curious what things will I spout but it's unfortunate that I am quite a good drinker (compliment from KH). And surprisingly, I woke up before noon today when I thought I'll be unconscious until afternoon since I was very fatigued.



Speaking of that, there's work tomorrow. :(


And I just cut the back of my hair by about 2cm which pains me! Am grumpy about my loss. It's going to take me another few months to grow to the same length again. If only their growth are as quick as beans sprouting.



Lastly, I just watched New Moon yesterday and IT SUCKED!





Long and boring. The one that's sitting beside Grace fell asleep almost throughout the movie. He went for a toilet break after he woke up and I think he came back and continued sleeping.


That's how sucky it is.

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Whoohoo my parcel from overseas had arrived!


I haven't open to check my Haruhi Suzumiya figurine yet, will be doing it after I type this short entry. It came to Singapore pretty fast! Wasn't expecting it yet because it usually takes about two weeks to reach me.


I'm having Japanese lesson later but I'm soooo fatigued. I managed to replenish some sleep just now by sacrificing my Anime time but I'm still so sleepy. A little afraid I might doze off during class, which is something that I did while I was having my rebonding session this morning.


She even asked me, "You're very tired is it?"

Yes I AM!!



Because I came home late this morning and have to wait for my hair to dry etc, so didn't have enough sleep. But figurines will keep me awake.


I'M GOING TO COLLECT ANOTHER TWO FIGURINES TOMORROW!!!!!


Ah! I haven't memorised the stuff I'm supposed to memorise yet. Crap.

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It's now 2.13AM, and I just reached home not long ago.


Afraid that I might not wake up on time or even worse, overslept for my appointment later in the morning (same timing as the start of work). I got a day off with the help of my superb charisma but I hope it won't be wasted by me in the sense that I missed my appointment.


Or should I not sleep? But I want to! The bed looks really tempting tonight.

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